Laurel Inn

The maid is intrusive.. and my landlord Chris was intrusive like this before <~ me being sick in bed was triggering his inner saboteurs…. Yesterday when I had chest pain, and some (408) number was calling me from Gilroy <~ his inner bad guy won’t leave me alone…. There was no strong protection between me & him, but he didn’t traumatize me further, because we had *a plan…* <~ I believe that the plan was what kept him from lashing out…. But his inner sabotaging dad was co~sabotaging me w: my inner male critic tho, and he was expecting me to stand up against him <~ it was obvious he was also sabotaging me, but I felt burnt out from the neighbor hostility because they didn’t get their way, so I decided to leave w/out putting up more fights…. But I was not happy abt what happened, but I couldn’t see any other way from keeping him or his neighbors from hurting me more…. It also seems like he anticipated that he might hurt me again if I stayed longer…. And he did when I reached out to him & asked him to sit near my bed…. He did start another round of pushing away…